Today I am proud that I did something very special after so many things that have happened, and has nothing to do with education, is much more simple: I was finally able to sit and mourn without any sense while keeping my blank mind, letting my emotions flowed at last alone. This semester I became very long and difficult, adding the need to hold every day a pity within me to not interfere with my studies, but ultimately did well. Yesterday I had a fun day and desestrezante with some college friends, and I got home I lay in bed in my bedroom only to listen, I closed my eyes and felt something strange in the environment that I was afraid because I feel calm, peace, tranquility, relaxation. There was no one but me in that house, away from it all seemed to move, and I remained lying in the middle of that time gap, I relaxed, breathed and cried. And at that moment I could feel some joy filled my soul, yet another thing I felt I was filled, something strange, with a mixture of nostalgia and something else ... and after spending a few hours, you start to see a very interesting drama (Dorama is a Japanese drama, in this case is for 1 Litre no Namida [1 Liter of Tears], but not be fooled by the name), I realized that this strange thing inside me was something I wanted out, was the mixture of many things that were accumulated during the semester, and that he could finally leave. It was a bit slow, gradual, but I've been that much of all this comes at last: I've laughed enough, cried as necessary, and thought in perspective.
Now that I think ... lately I have changed my social circle rather, people with whom I interact, and in truth I miss with whom I shared many good moments I still can not make up the idea of \u200b\u200balways having to leave some and then go beyond, but unfortunately this is now part of my life like it or not. And in what I think, in all that one comes to think again and again I question arises: What if I knew that my life is about to end? The previously mentioned dorama I again raised this question, and I know that if he did not then know what to do, my mind would explode in thoughts, emotions thousands try to leave at the same time, it would be total chaos that would be reflected in my face . But beyond that, if reached that point ... Have I lived? Have I achieved what I set? And thinking, remembering ... not yet arrived in the middle of that long list that is my life, but I plan several things from now on, within those changes that I consider to be reborn one day I wish I was in the pipeline for some time and is able to return to share with life without much shame to go to someone and be able to show that life is much better than what he sees so far. It is a goal, but it is my goal. From now on, be one of my priorities.
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